Monday, October 10, 2011

~another sunset with you~


Hoping another sunset with you..
l would die for the purple hush..
Breathing your soul,within black hair..
Just like good old memories,I love..

Wraping my arms,on you..
To reachout our dreams..
Ignoring the stars fall..
Watching your beauty..

Draw my own dearest sunset..
Colours from the brown sea shore..
Canvas of your sweet lovely breath..
Sexy pixels from deep blue eyes..

I am this little young boy..
Waits for your only whisper..
When the lips get closer and closer..
I'll be a pheonix for rebirth..
~on every sunset~

Monday, May 30, 2011

:(((

True love 02 PDF Print E-mail
Written by another writer 
Saturday, 15 January 2011 12:56





http://www.tharunee.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=247%3Atrue-love&catid=25%3Athe-project&Itemid=119 this was taken by a site on what you see with the link :)))

True love 01 PDF Print E-mail
Written by Administrator   
Monday, 03 January 2011 13:17
The wedding.




Her name is Katie Kirkpatrick, 21 yrs old. Next to her is her fiancé, Nick, 23.
This picture was taken prior to their wedding January 11th, 2005.
Katie has terminal cancer and spends hours in chemotherapy.
Here Nick awaits while she finishes one of the sessions...



Even in pain and dealing with her organs shutting down, with the help of morphine,
Katie took care of every single part of the wedding planning.
Her dress had to be adjusted several times due to Katie 's constant weight loss.



An expected guest was her oxygen tank. Katie had to use it during the ceremony and reception.
The other couple in this picture is Nick's parents, very emotional with the wedding and to see their

son marrying the girl he fell in love when he was an adolescent.


Katie , in a wheel chair listening to her husband and friends singing to her.


In the middle of the party, Katie had to rest for a bit and catch her breath.
The pain does not allow her to stand for long period of time.



Katie died 5 days after her wedding. To see a fragile woman dress as bride with a beautiful smile

makes you think... happiness is always there within reach, no matter how long it lasts.....
lets enjoy life and don't live a complicated life. Life is too short.

Work as if it was your first day.
Forgive as soon as possible.
Love without boundaries...
Laugh without control
and never stop smiling.
Please pray for those suffering from cancer.
We all have close to our heart.
Keep this going.
Prayers are always answered.


Friday, May 20, 2011

~kendarey....!¡(horoscope)~

by Mahesh Fernando Hope on Wednesday, May 18, 2011 at 3:35pm

palamu pemin apa baduna handa..
kendarennam -ahuwey na mema..
apey Randu saruwal nowuna hinda..
kendarey magey adareta keliya..

Ahasey tharu payapu hati dutuwa..
Ey desa balala maliga thanuwa..
Ada ey ahasama mata Erehi wela..
Kendarey mage lokaya bida damma..

Kendarey mata nam epa thaththey..
Adarey tiyenney hith wala ammey..
Aashirwadaya hodatama athi ney..
Diwi mawatha saru wee jaya wanney..

lowatama payana rata athi tharuwen ..
Karaiyda eli ara udayepayana hiru men..
Ewan podi tharu wala ratawa samagin..
Jeewitha gana mona kathada kiypang..

Wishwasaya ,aalaya hithwala athi thura..
Kendara parada true love jaya gaththa..
Randusandu gewal ada Hama thana pirila..
eyala Mulinma balapu dey ara kendarey thama..

Ada 21weni sathawarshaya minisuney..
Agama dhamata ladi wee inney..
Kendara koleta jeewitha noliyanney..
Buduhimi,Jesus, kendara balalada pihita uney?

Rap..

Like e beautiful scars in our stairy scopes..
Where the pictures we got in lovely notes..
oh Shit they talk about our horoscopes..
Where the minds of humans the gods talked?

Sri Lanka is just a small small country..
England is running money with her little dawry..
where did we go wrong~wake up daddy!
Just the way we think and do the things mummy!

Kendarey...shapey magey..
Mata kela karapu ey kendarey..
Ona na mata ey kathandarey..
owa nathuwata adarey hithey athey...

~the end~
;)
Dedicated to all the haters of horoscopes!
People open your eyes.
Don't be so dumb to believe and put your precious life on a piece of a shit paper.
U are the reason for your goodwill and the bad..
You and your determination decides whats best for you,
And your birth time is just a time.
U can make that time useful to world or the same biggest best mistake of god!

ha ha at last i did it!
~kendarey...¡!(horoscope)~
My first reality song,
LoL,
Am sure all the astrology people will hate me when diz goes on S.L networks!
Lol that would be a f.awesome day of likes and double dislikes!
Bullshit Of HOROSCOPES!


Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I DREAM................

I dream..

by Mahesh Fernando Hope on Wednesday, May 11, 2011 at 1:37pm
To make you mine...
With every smile..

To Support you..
and even cry..

When you need the words..
I will write..

To take you away..
and travel sky high..

To show every place..
which WE used to die..

To Kiss you deep..
with a long smile..

To watch you swim..
when I dive..

To Hear you sing..
when I drive..

To Drop our kids..
with you by my side..

To Hold you tight..
when I lost my smile..

To Keep my face hiding..
when I cry..

To Be the music..
of your life..

To Cuddle you warm..
every movie night..

To Have a pop corn..
feeding you by my side..

To Dance alone..
when the nights arrive..

To touch your face..
with the looks in your eyes..

To feel your faith..
when the clock is  nine..

To Hold your hand..
when I die..


~dizzling tears~ hopes' next song..:)

~dizzling tears~

by Mahesh Fernando Hope on Wednesday, May 11, 2011 at 1:17pm

Oh my dizzling tears..
Tell me your every fears..
I used to smile in ma gears..
Oh smile dizzling tears..

I carry you on my eyes..
Cheeks get red when she cries..
Shes so beauty and so nice..
Smile is just a dream in my life..

Hold me close when I cry..
I want that hug I feel I fly..
Just a miracle..but ends with a cry..
Make me cool..let me die..

Marry me now and feel the smile..
Kiss my head every day in a while..
Give me a child with my own style..
Will name her as mile..the way you like..

Seasons runaway,with my hope..
Don't be afraid,Come near me close..
Give me love,that's all I want..
I had everything,which I lost..

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

~21 roses for april 4th~


by Mahesh Fernando on Sunday, April 3, 2011 at 9:53pm
some dreams don't come true..

And some even they don't become true..
we can make them in to true..
And this is about a dream I only made true..

~the love of my life~

Am thinking about the 21 roses..
And each got its unique reason for as you are too unique in my life...

1st rose for the word 'yes' you gave me to love u and to be loved by you...

2nd rose for your Innocence that I always liked the best of all..
Coz no other human girl could take that place of you..

3rd comes for the best friend in my life,still making you e one and only 1st..

4th for the day of april,and wishing your day would filled with happiness and warmth by your parents,
brother and all the friends and relatives..

5th for all the happy dappy and sad bad tears and smiles we shared together in life..

6th for the sense you got for me to understand my feelings which made me so comfortable with you..

7th for me being so lucky to have you as my lover..

8th for the at most friendship since 2006 we shared..and we never could stay for awhile departed been out of it..

9th for making me so strong..which you got me handled and cradled in my every up and downs in my worthless life..
And trying to making it worth awhile..

10th for all e secrets we shared in our dreamy world..

11th for the whispers we made of 60 minutes each night talking each and every corner of life..

12th for all the funny escapes and muddy mistakes we've made,and for what we learnt from each experience..

13th for your devoted life and love for me which i could never felt from any girl but from my mum..

14th for all e feb 14ths we'v spent during past years,doing and having nothing special,
Coz every day was so special with you..

15th for you when am with you,and for your playfulness which sometimes drives me crazy and angry... :)

16th for the sweet emergency kisses...

17th for every thing I got in my life because of u my sweet lil rose..

18th with all my teenage love and atmosphere of romance,where we had our huge dreams to be together as soon as possible..

19th which is so uncommon like you,and for the uncommon soul you got in your divine..

20th is for what you are,the awesome girl with my same thoughts and intentions right here standing with me..

21st is just for your b'day which makes me so happy..
coz older you get in age,closer we get engaged...

After reading this you may question,"now where are e roses?"
And the answer isI don't have them..
Cause am poor with money,but rich in words...
And words can make you and your day special more than A Rose...

Lv u my c..
Have a wonderful 21st b'day!!

Umvah..
Yours m..

[2011.04.04]


on the way to a sweet angel ♥

~on The day I make you mine...~


by Mahesh Fernando on Wednesday, April 13, 2011 at 2:12pm
The day of a mid sunlight..-a feeling of calmness..
A clear blue sky without any cloud..-letting me know that every obstacle is gone..
Smiling faces ,i see..but my heart is smiling so loud for you..
I feel am loosing control..like a maniac to dance on the street...
I would love to go to the lonely beach..
With you holding hands..
Trampling every sand dust,laughing on them..
For the troublesome heat they gave us on before visits...
And i will face the sea water like a hero..
Theres no one to blame or punish us and ground us for going beach...
I would sit with you for awhile,
And keeping my head on your shoulder..
I would cry alot more than we did in past..
My heart may brake when you try to make it into a smile,without noticing you got tears on your eyes too..
Everybody giving their wellwishes..
Mouths of haters ,are shut...

~To be continued...~

HOPE: ~dont be afraid...~

HOPE: ~dont be afraid...~: "~dont be afraid...~ by Mahesh Fernando on Saturday, May 7, 2011 at 11:59am mummy -oh please tel me! why did daddy -leave me! I thought..."

HOPE: ~I would be...~

HOPE: ~I would be...~: "by Mahesh Fernando on Thursday, April 21, 2011 at 9:55pm I would be that little kid.. Making all the dumb mistakes.. And getting blamed ..."

HOPE: ~Sleepy sunflower~

HOPE: ~Sleepy sunflower~: "by Mahesh Fernando on Thursday, April 7, 2011 at 8:23pm I... Woke up in the morning... Ready to life...Yet sleepy and hollow.. Couldn't..."

HOPE: ~a girl with the last tear~

HOPE: ~a girl with the last tear~: "by Mahesh Fernando on Friday, April 8, 2011 at 12:47pm It seems like e hopes are gone.. But still searching for a new one.. Sometimes wor..."

~Empty~


by Mahesh Fernando on Sunday, April 10, 2011 at 7:32pm
am dead in my mind..
Can't walk with a smile..
You were gone..
Forever and far away..

Doing the right thing is good..
But there wasn't me in your decisions..
Where you always thought of the good sides..
And screwed up the main things..

The life of you and me..
So am gonna be empty..
Until you figure out the things..
And make the things in to right..

Am waiting..
For your stupid mistakes..
Empty but not angry..
What else i could do?

You may think,u giving me e best..
But think once and for all..
Then Why do I feel empty?..
for what i never thought before...

you may think your life is this..
full of sorrow and pain in bliss..
but you never thought of having a smile..
when you got chances,you letting them fly...

helping any one will be good..
but after when you get in to good..
other than a help will be a curse...
when another ones' heart is broken...

I beg for a smile..
Cause its rare for me..
Why do i deserve these tears?
The tears that i cant take out from my cheeks..


empty

~a girl with the last tear~

by Mahesh Fernando on Friday, April 8, 2011 at 12:47pm

It seems like e hopes are gone..
But still searching for a new one..
Sometimes world say its useless,
But the mind says try it once more..

Missing that warmth so badly..
She cries on her graveyard..
so deeply..Searching for someone to blame..
And gets the bad days in return..

When things don't work as wished..
She paints the lovely face in her mind..
Dreaming every night would become a nightmare..
Hoping her fairy would come for help..

Cheeks get red..
heart stops on bed..
Trying to smile,
But pain in a while..

A girl with the last tear..
Waits for her wanted dear..
Cries alone,stands so strong..
For the last hope..for the last tear...

Heart, full of music..
Seeking for her true love..
May she find her wisdom..
For the sake of her lost warmth and best things in life..

Ps:
the note goes to every one who is in pain ,
and thinking about a new hope..
May u be happy forever,and let fate find your joy so easily..
Cheers for u guys!
ashes of cuteness..

~Sleepy sunflower~


by Mahesh Fernando on Thursday, April 7, 2011 at 8:23pm
I...
Woke up in the morning...
Ready to life...Yet sleepy and hollow..
Couldn't figure out why...
Wind..tell me why...
Why is that I don't feel right,after all..
I'm supposed to smile,looking the sun..
And watch the birds love..

Instead,I wanted to hide my face...And cry so hard...
But where is the reason..
I never found the things,Things which am looking for..

These hours keep me lonely..
What a miserable life is this..?
I wanna fly,and explore the world..
A world full of feelings and moments..

But..am stuck in here forever..
Standing alone,waiting for a hope..
But it never came,searching for me..

Bees come and take,
What ever the things they want to..
Price my feelings...and my mind...
Which still am hanging on...

When i was lil..
I wanted to be the dream i wanted..
Yet its gone..
With a curse of my destiny..

Where did it go wrong..?It was only love..
But for him I was just lust..
But my heart never believed in..
Blinded by his own touch..

Then there were multiple..
Which i wanted to resist..
And never could..
Here I am,standing for another bee..

Letting him to price my soul and body..
Still living with a hope..
One day..some one..,
May gift me..His awesome life..For real life..But not for hours...

Am ready to bloom..And to smile and say "am happy"..
But no one will never give me a chance..
To show me through,To show the real girl inside me..
Greedy for life and love..

Let it be..
Let it happen..
Let me smile..
Even before a day i die..

Let me have a family..
Let me have kids..
Let me be the perfect mum...
Let me face the world..

Just as every other female flower..
Just as a beauty of a single bee..
Am not a flower,after all..Am a human girl,with a soul..
Having a broken life..
Loved so much..for a special person ..
In return i got to be....
a prostitute...


let me have hopes..

~I would be...~


by Mahesh Fernando on Thursday, April 21, 2011 at 9:55pm
I would be that little kid..
Making all the dumb mistakes..
And getting blamed by my best friends..
Wrapping my hands with you instead..

I would be that powerless one..
On the day we got so alone between thousands..
Just crying so secretly,even the smile pretend the pain..
Nothing but waiting for you was only the thing i could do..

I would be the one small child..
Who will be a kid to you baby..
Getting sad and mad for every mistake..
Hide and cry so hard in my mind...

I would be the reminder of your dark photographs...
Letting not anybody hurt you..
But it did..sometimes,when we try to meet too..
Poor you,didn't flip e big tears at all..

I would be..
I would be..

I would be your lil *The* hero,one day..
I don't ever forget the pain..
What bought us together so strong..
Even the tears would sing for us..

For what we would be some day..

Hope..

[intro]{a lil sound of hot air comes..
with a twincle sound of a wind chime..
E sound gets more strong..
and then vanishes away..
-then silence..Piano accompanies..}

Girl:
May you Give a little new hope..
I See you on every work I sort..
dreams have reached the limits i got..
its the beginning of a new hope...

{drums accompany}

I raise my hand,to fetch me up..
In case I run,follow with the sup..

by Mahesh Fernando on Wednesday, May 4, 2011 at 3:20pm



I raise my voice,to feel so safe ...
was dreaming,i just woke up then..

[chorus with guitar,drums + brass..]
Give me a hope..to live beyond..
Give me a home..
Love is all i lost..
Hope is all i got..

I walk alone the lonely streets..
No matter how was the creed..
Or the cast its in your dreams..
Love is just everything all i need..

I wish i was strong..
To bare my hunger alone..
Nothing seems to be wrong..
But the thirst is just a storm..

{violin or viola}
Sun keep rising everyday..
They go to school on that day..
But I never found that own way..
May be the hope is on the way..
[fade to chorus]

~dont be afraid...~

~dont be afraid...~

by Mahesh Fernando on Saturday, May 7, 2011 at 11:59am


mummy -oh please tel me!
why did daddy -leave me!
I thought -he'd love me!
but some thing -just hit me!

Today I came to see you,
crying under the shade of you,
I hear the whisper from you,
just wanna have a hug from you,


-CHORUS-
Am here..to hold you forever..
So near..to hug you like no other..
you hear..?iv been with you so longer...
I will never leave you, coz you are my dreamer..

sometimes....
I cry...

sometimes....
I ask why...

every time....
they try...

each time....
I get a sigh...


I see a lot of children...
they walk with their parent...
where is my guardian...
was it me the lost servant...

They come near me saying..
don't be afraid you are saved..
They just got what they need..
Here i am -a broken leaf..

mummy -am leaving you..
Daddy -i couldn't find you..
money is the best- flue..
am just a coin -i knew..

mummy -oh please tel me!
why did daddy -leave me!
I thought -he'd love me!
but some thing -just hit me!

Friday, March 18, 2011

Broken wings...[2nd short story]

A girl with beauty and passion...
She was ok with wealth and health..
Thankful to her parents,she could live with smiles..and with no worries for economic issues..

When she was 19..
She was fortunate to enter the government univercity due to accomplishments of her advance level examination results..
Her name is minushi...
Some called her minu,nushi..


Wihanga was a boy who entered the same univercity...
With many poverty issues..
His dad was gone outta his life from a long time ago..but not from this earth....
He was simple..
But had many dreams for his lil brother and his loving mother,
Who was so fedup educating her both children..
Seeking that they would be good gentlemen someday with great effort and economic & social values...


For the sake of destiney or whatever,
Minu and wihanga fell in love at first sight...
First they were just friends,and then best friends.,
Then became two great responsible lovers...
Minu couldnt eat by her self because her mum had fed her every eating stuff..
So she was sweet and lazy to eat by herself..,and instead her mum she found her life companian to feed her again...
It was a nice ongoing love story..
Until now ,and until minus' parents got to know this by an outter individual...
For the first time tears came between their love..

Rules and restrictions..
Monitoring and checking..
Questioning and limiting..
She was so fedup and had a bad idea about her own parents..

And their love had gone so far..
Socially,mentally and physically..
And both lovers felt normal on that but not the parents...

Also wihanga was stuck with his family economic issues...
He couldnt turn back on his mum and bro..coz they are so helpless with his aid..and support even by a word..
Wihanga lived with tears and fears..
He had this two women ,he loved the most in his world..

Minu was so understandable on these issues and on whatever the things happen..
She never let wihanga fall down..
They were blessed with their own love...
True understanding...
And most importantly with atmost friendship...
Many troubles and issues they had to face to gether...
But they were so in love...
Who always comforted their own selves in tears and cheered in smiles...
One day...



continued from.....

the sky was so black....
and the clouds didnt seem so ok for wihanga..
but...
he didn't knew what was coming to him,
though he realized some thing is going badly wrong...[really bad]

on that day minu wasn't @ the univercity..
she was supposed to come as the before night Telephone conversation..
wihanga was waiting for her ,ignoring his lectures too...
he tried to reach her mobile ,, but her phone was not working or out of reach...
wihanga was so frightened...
he didn't knew what to do...
and his many friends were also looking at him helplessly..
those friends didn't wanted to stay like that... cause both wihanga and minu had helped many of them..
helped as their own brothers and sisters...
but every thing was silent and calm around there ,until wihanga got a call from a strange number...
it belonged to a land line with some odd numbers....
he answers it with shivering hands and in a shivering mind...
:"HELLO is this wihanga...??"
:"yes i am.., who are you please????"
next moment his face became more and more black..
and it became so strange pale....
wihanga couldnt bear it any more ..
he dropped his phone automatically as he fell down on his knees..
"why??why is it me???"

heavy tear drops rolled down his cheeks..
leaving his every friend in a question..
''WHy dude wat has happen..?"

"we have to go to the hospital....
RIGHT NOW..!!!!"

wihanga felt so damn about his life...
every thing he gets close to he looses...
his dads love[he didn't really care about that but].., and now....
he was not so strengthy to walk .. but his friends backed him up...
keeping his hands' weight on there shoulders....

they hurried to hospital and it took few minutes to find the correct ward...
there he stood up....
it was just like a dream....
wihanga could't bear it any more...
he started crying like a small child....
making the whole ward stunned and making every one there so sad!!
some whispered "oh ! that POOR BOY!!"

~continued from..~

Minu was lying on a bed..
Head bandaged..
And some wrist damages..
But she was normal other that..
Inside above all the facts..she was looking so pale..
But smiled seeing wihanga,with heavy tears...
Her dad was on the bed next to her..
With a hand bandaged..
And her mother was standing there watching both her daughter & husband..
Even their relationship was prohibited, no one didn't stop this happening..as wihanga came near minu's
Bed..
They just watched themselves with shiverring tears...
And then...
Wihanga hold her hands and whispered...
''You are safe with me..''
Minu began to cry and told "but my love am incomplete now.."
And lowered her cloth that was covering her both knees...
Wihanga didnt noticed it since he was looking at her beautiful face all the time...
Cause it was the beauty he always wanted to watch even in his dreams..
But now ,,....
Wihanga was confused..
"why what's wrong?"
"So this is just bandages around your legs..
Don't worry sweety..
That will heal with time..."

Minu closed her eyes,and cried...
Again like a baby..
"no baby,i will never walk again..."

"What you mean?"
Wihanga had lost his strength..
And felt his mouth getting so so dry...
He was unable to speak any word...
Those words made him so upset and fall so deep down...

[there was a few silence..]
Wihanga sat beside of minu's bed..
And looked at her again..
She speaked out again..
"wihanga listen,am not normal now,and im not sad even if you wanna leave..
As your lil angel is now seeking a wheel chair..."
"It's ok..
I want you to make your life complete..with some one else who will make you happier,but not with a girl like me.."
Wihanga didn't hear these lines while he was thinking about a way to help minu..
And he felt minu wanted him to leave from her life..
Wihanga took minu's hand and asked,
"Do you love me?"
Minu replied,"ya more than my life"

Then wihanga asked,
"do you think ,I can take care of you?"

"I don't know,but all I know is you were the one for me..."minu said..

"Minu,girly ,don't worry..
Still I got my legs and your love..
Wihanga was so confident on his answer,
As minu's parents understood the real love of him to their only child..
But they couldn't speak anymore other than looking at their own faces all the time hearing the conversation...

"Minu would you like to marry me,when you are ok with the hospital conditions..."

"I don't know baby...
All I wanted is to be with you forever ,but now I don't have my own legs even..."minu cried again..

"but you got my legs..
And I will walk for both of us.."
Wihanga said it with so much of cheerfully..

At that moment minu figured out that she had made the best choice ever...
That she always won her own life and gained the best giving something best in her..

Like she gave her all life to a human faced fairy..
Who always helped and loved so deeply....


~ending~
*Both minu and wihanga completed their univercity degrees ,and wìhanga getting the best outstanding award..with a 1st class..
*their friends had helped them with many issues ..as every campus student got a great example of pure love..
*wihanga married minu..
She wore a wedding frock and every one forgot she was sitting on a wheel chair..when seeing her beauty..
And minu used to have a walk on beach, every weekend..with wihanga..
Who carried her and walked for a lil distance...
*Minu couldnt walk or stand by her own..permanantly,
But she was so lucky to have a husband like wihanga..
*wìhanga took care of his lil bro and of his mum ,and wihanga was able to give them a comfortable life...
*after two years they had twins..
A girl named winu and a boy named minaga...

And still minu had broken wings...
But flyied so far looking her children's faces & smiles...
And most importantly experiencing a best care & love of a lil dreamer who walked by two legs weighing two spiritual bodies..


...and this is why broken wings could be a ray of a little hope...

~the End~

your silence...

Just lying on my bed..
I wish u were here with me..
I wonder did I hurt you..
Considering your silence thee..

It reminds me how we used to talk..
And flirt all over the day..
And I just ask my self..
Where is that past way...

I pretend my smile..
And search for yours..
Looking for that shine..
And the charm face of yours..

Oh!please destiny..
Oh!please the time..
Oh!or whatever it controles us..
Please break e silence..
And let she talk with me....


~sacrifice~{i always wanted to give up poetry,but seems like I can't stop it coming..} :)

~sacrifice~{i always wanted to give up poetry,but seems like I can't stop it coming..} :)

by Mahesh Fernando on Thursday, January 6, 2011 at 12:20pm

I used to do it always..
Which I thought it was me..
All the time...

Spending a precious time...
Nearly for two hours...
Its all her time...

I wonder now..and I surrender...
I was wrong..and define..
I wish I could stop the time...

Waiting for me...
Sitting and suffocating within a tight...
Waiting for me till our time..

I felt so sad...
And figured out you'v felt the same devine...
So did I..

Its so great..to have someone...
Waiting for you and keep looking...
But I know it's a sacrifice...

I always thought in a while...
From today onwards...
I dnt really care for time...

It may drain my powers..
And I will not overcome my every failure..
But some one is waiting for me...

Such a nice feeling..
That I understood within tears...
And always through sacrifice...


[this work goes to my sweet little lady mermaid C..who waited nearly for a long time..
Am so sad of u and so happy with u..
Which u taught me today what is real sacrifice..
And gave me a special feeling..of 'you are there for me'.. ] ..
Thank u..my innocent fairy boo..

the Dark dream of my life,,

it feels so painful..
To smile when its really gone faraway..
Just like acting you are ok..
But still..got stuck in a dark dream..

This is not what I meant to be...
Am used to make people happy..
But today,i feel am lost...
Cause there is only darkness left...

All my dreams..
My powerful intentions..
Things I wanted to have..
All gone like a dark dream...

I..always question...
Mash!are u ok?
He says yes...
For the people who wants u badly...

My roads are vanished..
And am not allowed to dream anymore..
Even to get hurt...but to be occupied by destiny..
Its humour everywhere,
And reality hides..

No more compattionate love..
With less day dreaming outlaws..
And restrictrictions for music..
But unlimitted lonelyness thy..

I was wrong..
Now am so done..
Lost of many hopes..
Every work gets more worse...

This dream of my life..
I wish ,it will never come again...
Fading clouds ya am so done with finding silver lines..

~Heat of love~

Love will heat us up!
It's been more than four years..
But I had never felt this much...
May be the climate helped me out..
To figure me out it was Heat of love...

The day was so cold...
And I'd rather be on fire...
But could'nt find a place...
To me to feel better than in you..

All the time of that 10minutes..
I was holding your hand so tight..
Trying to hide my whole self in you..
Begging for your Heat of love...

Its just pure and confirmed..
I...just understood...
What That twinggled fingers could do...
Like the own music in me..
Beating my heart in to yours..

Getting so and more closer...
Like a little child seeking for it's mum...
Still shivering me on cold...
Couldnt bearup your departure..

I wished the time stopped..
And every thing in this world we belonged..
But me still holding hands of yours...
I know you wouldnt mind,
Giving me that Heat of love...

It's not the ordinary love...
Or the famous popular sex..
But just a feeling like no other..
At the moment you warmed me holding hands..

Heat of your love...
Still remains in my soul...
Saving me from every cold...
Heat of your true love...



~finding the true meaning of 'stars'...~

What is the true meaning of Stars.....................????
are they planets and suns???
scientifically it ,s most the known truth...
but in here am trying to find the philosophical meaning through my language....-poetry

is it only about Blinking stuff?
no!its not blinking as we see it in the sky...
but it may give light to us...
and make our lives brighter more than we think....,
because stars are meant to be suns or planets.....

Some may ask is this about popular stars that we got to know by RADIO or T.V.....
no,, this is about the true Stars in our life........

as you were born to this earth.....
your care takers will be your mom & dad....
who will be the brightest stars in your world....
but this may be vary with some reasons and acts....

it means each and every child will not get the same,
as described in the before verse....
and some of the stars they get will shine more brighter,than the stars of the universe...
as some may think that light is a trouble...

and mostly the next stars we find ,are friends...
some may bring Light and some may bring the DARK...
And it is up to us to chose the best stars suiting us...
and mostly the choosing may be wrong...and some times not..

and here comes the best part....
this is about finding your real star....
that you will mostly share every thing in your life...
and it will be your light for ever...

and may be the opposite if the things dont work.........and go wrong..
it will be your life companion..
which you should let it discover you...
and that discovery will be finding 'you' as his /her star..and so do you....

on each and every single day.....
you may find it as a sway....
where you have to overcome the difficulties..
and may be let the things go you can't reach...

but most importantly...
to be with what you are...
because that certain star had found you,..
and you have done the same...
[Regarding the unique qualities..]

I think this is the true meaning of the star....
which you have made a choice...
and have dedicated more than you think....
and sworn to let the star shine...

with it's help and deep passion...
Finding a true definition will be so difficult..
if we don't give values to those people who believe in us,..
and have done a lot more to make us happy...

I may not be so successful in dis note may be..
But in real life am trying..
And may this work be a thank u note who has been stars in my world..
Specially,my mum,my c,and my best friends,with sisters,brothers and cousins..

And I do believe u as my own stars..
Who is lighting my life..
Each and every day...
And yet the true meaning of stars may hidden...

Thank you............

~more than a feeling...~

Never know how I could start this...
All the time I did wrote my feelings...
But never ever came up with this...
To carve the words of more than a feeling...

Lovin' you was something I learnt...
By your eyes and deep silent whispers...
Kept me binded to you for ever and blessed...
That he who was me lived in dreams...

That moment..
That kiss..
That extraordinary thing...
That I never couldnt forget...

Been with the meaning for my life...
And when the way is secured for me...
I looked for your foot steps to follow...
And found me lying inside your golden soul..

Just keeping you on my craddle of love...
Combing your hair through my eye sight..
Kissing your fragrance for thousand lonely nights..
More than a feeling-i was alive...

I know this is incomplete..
For the first time in my life..
I was weakened by my own words...
Its you-more than a feeling...

I wonder why do I miss you...
May be the heart aches for you...
Once it was so strong rough and bold...
For today I beg you my sweet angel...

You,More than a feeling...
It was so comfortable...
Keeping you on my lap...
Hidding my head in your heart...

More than a feeling-you gave me...

Dedicated to my sweet angel ...




~invisible tear drops~

Stuck in a world of black & white..
Unseen the beauty of a peaceful mind..
They smile and say,we are alright..
Wonder how I can't do it when everything is a fight...

All those past,for those mistaken actions...
Can't have only the perfect good moments...
Trying to smile..but never had a chance for awhile...
Invisible tear drops..,Stuck in my mind...

People wanna be happy...
Caring themselves insanely...
Making the lies has been so lovely...
When everything is sorted..they treat it so badly..

No use of writing about this human nature..
Darkness will always overcome the goodwill..
Only a few will remain as themselves..and for us...
Sorrow is some thing started when life began on earth..

Wanna break this silence....
wanna help the ones who needed..
wanna watch out for ones who'd be willing to..
helpless man I am,when invisible tear drops...

wanna smile so badly....
and use my freedom freely...
wanna be with my dreams..
and see them come so true....

~sweet memories.......~

sweet memories...
Filled like all the things in mind.....
like flashes and photographs.....
with the ones we used to be with...

wish the time turned back...
where it could happen again and again...
And wishing to experience it just like a song...
Pressing the repeat button...


The love at first sight...
Like a new guitar tune...
Wanting to hear it again and again..
Wishing more sweet memories to come...

Accompanies more instruments..
When it grows seriously...
And happening with more incidents...
A'las a total damn orchestra...

And when the triumph has reached..
Keeping your love by your side..
Again those sweet memories..
Comes round in round...making warm smiles..

When true love is broken..
When you can't hate him/her..
Instead love the memories..
And fool yourself with compassion...

Ready to die for the moments & for the person,
And to take them back..
Heart beats like a kettle drum..
Where the happy scales are performed in mind..

For the first time of the birth of their child..
Tears from that mom & dad...
Thinking about their lil angel...
Made of sweet memories...

Wishing to make him/her as a royal infant..
Cherish his/her every intake with happiness & smile..
The day he/she weds..Flashbacks of punishments,&all the good things in past..
Wishing all the success,With white roses full of guidance..

A Mandalin adding more colors for the chorus..
Making the memories,awesome beauty...
Capturing it from every possibility they've got..
Reaching on to a subway,where the road never ends..

Still they walk together..
Into the beats of music that they never practiced..
But they knew who they were..
And they were meant to be...
~For ever~

So valuable when its memorized...
~sweet memories...~
Coz people in it may change..
But memories don't..
Adding a happy tear and a sad tear,together...

Dedicated to ~C~,

Written because of topic given by my sis
~Andreen coorey..~

And in memory of my lost dead friend
~Ashi j~

And for all who got sweet memories..

Thank you..
Mash Fdo

~hold me not..when am gone..~

It can be tomorrow..Or the day after it..
Will be feeling like yesterday..
But am leaving today...
I'v spent the past mornings..

Saying good morning to you..
And remembered you on every sun up..
Thinking of me & you watching every eve sunset..
And Dreaming together at sleepless nights..

I may not live that pretty much long..
Even though I wanna be with you forever..
Take my every thing..but not her..
I asked death..and begged...He said 'No!'

May be he will take..everything..
Including you & my true feelings for you..
But he never got my soul..
Always Stuck & attached to you..

When the day has come...
The moment I would stop breathing..
Its easy to see tears falling from me..
My eyes trying so hard to see you once..

And I begged him again,the Death..He said 'no!'
But never knew that my soul will be watching you..
And protecting you from every darkness..
Even I can't..I would try my best...

Cant help,I never can't leave you...
I lie on my coffin..Staying calm,what I never could do..
When tears roll down your cheeks..
Hold me not when am gone...

Remember the day we met?It was normal..
but not the days we got so close this much...
Remember the things we shared?It was everything..
that world coulnt even imagine...

I'll be free now..
Saying these all to you..
Hold me not...
When am never ever gone...

Be the music...of my life...

I whisper...
All my sleepless nights..
Thinking of you..
Hoping every thing will be ok...

I dream...
All the dreams that I can imagine..
With you how am gonna spend my life..
Closing my eyes dreaming of you..

I cry...
For all the sweetest moments...
That I couldnt have you by my side...
Life hurts,when you are not there...

I smile...
Thinking that we would be together...
Some day,some way..forever..
Reaching our hands and hearts together..

I watch the sky...
Leaning on the grass ground here..
Wishing you were so near...
So we could scream,damn clear...

I swear...
Ill be with you forever..
Even the world don't want us to see together...
We can make it true..am so sure..

Be the music...of my life...
In return you will not get much better...
But a little smile..that I can be so sure...
That you will not get from a big money letter...

Ill suffer...
For anything that we can be together...
But not for that feeling of missing you for every matter...
Because when I miss you..
Thats a best I can name as a suffer...

~Away from light..a sway on life..~

(right now my heart is full with set of new words,words that I havent written before I guess.so ,lets get it started...)

Suddenly,I woke up from my dream..
Differently,I was at the door step of my destiny...
Souls were every where searching for something..
They never had their faces,but with red hearts beeping so hard..
I could see the feelings they had right in front of me,it was like transparent...
And found they all had my dreams and wishes of my life...
I started walking with a breeze..,
Figured out I was missing something..
It was my fear...
I found the horizon,Where the pictures hanged every where of my mother..
But never remember or know how those photographs were captured..
or taken...
I found a rose,the beauty,the passion of love..,
just one love...
She had that smile always kept, me going on...
I tried to touch her lips..
couldnt do it,instead it did whisper,like in good old sweet lovely days...
There were this black garden,just like a cemetery with many coffins and memorials..
But with no names...
I laid my hand on one..
It was a mistake of me got carved on it..
And as I finished reading it,it just melted down...
With a white rose blooming there..
Me Realizing mistakes are for the past...
But you gotta learn something from every inch of it...
And I was searching for a new hope...
Been Broken at everything...
But may be not...I started my journey...
Where I met different trees of shadows...
Some gave me support..
And some did made me sad and weakened..
Like the friends of my life...
It was the sea shore..
I heard it from the echoes of my own mind...
but couldnt figure out the direction some times...
That was my bad,may be it was success..
Still i'v been searching for...
I reached the light..and obviously was away from the light too...
And there were the opportunities and there were non some times...
Which It seemed, its a sway on life that turned into a game,and sometimes gets so worse..
Thinking of the bright side..
I could move the options..that I'v got to change..or edited..
Those ash clouds came through and also the small tiny silver lines..
I was so fed up redoing the same hated work..
And fancy as working in a team of my own...
I found codes and genes attached together...
Leading me and my love in to a new subway of our own inventions...
I saw women and bitches too..
Some that took my eyes away for a while and the other smelled like shit on lies& hatred..
Some I trusted a lot and some I let go...
And I drew purple lined arts for music and love...
Looking up above I saw the stars of brightness..
And felt that am ought to win and sometimes loose too...
Clearing my throat I had speeches on my mind leading me in to hell and sometimes to heaven..
Where I couldnt find a difference..
Sometimes tomorrow was so frustrated late and gloomy..
Like the last sleep of my body,aches by loneliness...
Missing my everything I was holding, nothing...
Woke up from the bed...
But the dreams still seems to have a real gesture...

A hope of a new start!

Thank you my sleep....