~Sleepy sunflower~

by Mahesh Fernando on Thursday, April 7, 2011 at 8:23pm

I...
Woke up in the morning...
Ready to life...Yet sleepy and hollow..
Couldn't figure out why...
Wind..tell me why...
Why is that I don't feel right,after all..
I'm supposed to smile,looking the sun..
And watch the birds love..

Instead,I wanted to hide my face...And cry so hard...
But where is the reason..
I never found the things,Things which am looking for..

These hours keep me lonely..
What a miserable life is this..?
I wanna fly,and explore the world..
A world full of feelings and moments..

But..am stuck in here forever..
Standing alone,waiting for a hope..
But it never came,searching for me..

Bees come and take,
What ever the things they want to..
Price my feelings...and my mind...
Which still am hanging on...

When i was lil..
I wanted to be the dream i wanted..
Yet its gone..
With a curse of my destiny..

Where did it go wrong..?It was only love..
But for him I was just lust..
But my heart never believed in..
Blinded by his own touch..

Then there were multiple..
Which i wanted to resist..
And never could..
Here I am,standing for another bee..

Letting him to price my soul and body..
Still living with a hope..
One day..some one..,
May gift me..His awesome life..For real life..But not for hours...

Am ready to bloom..And to smile and say "am happy"..
But no one will never give me a chance..
To show me through,To show the real girl inside me..
Greedy for life and love..

Let it be..
Let it happen..
Let me smile..
Even before a day i die..

Let me have a family..
Let me have kids..
Let me be the perfect mum...
Let me face the world..

Just as every other female flower..
Just as a beauty of a single bee..
Am not a flower,after all..Am a human girl,with a soul..
Having a broken life..
Loved so much..for a special person ..
In return i got to be....
a prostitute...

let me have hopes..